Okay, so I hate people.

I just do.

Dick Cheney.

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Watching "Law and Order" tonight and saw an episode taken almost directly from the whole damn Terri Shivo bullshit.

Riddle me this, Batman.....how can someone who claims to be pro life in every sense of the word either condone or commit murder? Of course, Terri Shivo's husband was still alive, the last I heard, but I'm speaking in generals here. I simply don't understand the logic. I just don't. Even if someone believes they are saving lives, they are still taking one. There is a HUGE lapse in logic with that. Or maybe it's just that I don't subscribe to that newsletter and fail to see the logic.

Oh well. I have more important issues to deal with right now....damn heartburn.

Holy shit

Due to the graphic nature of this post, reader discretion is advised. For cereal.

I'm watching "Cold Case Files". Dude was killed, they know who did it but don't have any proof, typical story.

Flash forward to six years after the murder. There is a place that is lovingly called the Body Farm. It's a place where bodies are kept to study them.

When I heard this, I thought bones in boxes and pictures and whatnot. No.

Oh no.

The bodies are strewn about the land. Fresh corpses are donated to the Body Farm. The bodies are then placed around the area, some clothed, some tied to trees, basically positioned in the many different ways victims could be posed in a real life murder.

Most of the bodies are being studied by medical students and forensic people. They hope to use this information to help determine exact time of death for bodies that were murdered. And A&E sure as shit showed us the many different bodies. In the many different stages of decomposition. At 11:30 in the AM.

Maybe it's the fact that I just ate fake cream cheese and orange marmalade on a bagel. Maybe it's the ever ready monthly leakage that's coming. I have no idea. But I do know that I have a pretty strong stomach. And I know that I almost got sick from some of the stuff I saw.

Pretty intense stuff.

I can't believe I forgot

I made the most AWESOME pasta sauce today!

I mean, seriously.

That is all.

But damn it was amazing.

Long time, no real post

So I know it's been awhile since I really wrote anything here. I don't know that I have much to say right now, but I feel the need to write.

I started up with new therapy today. It felt good, but kinda odd at the same time. I did a basic recap of the last decade and a half of my life in less than 50 minutes. But she seemed impressed by me, actually. She said, once the talking was done, that she observed that I was very much so in touch with who I was and have a clarity that many don't have. That was interesting. She asked me what I was wanting in therapy, and I told her that I wanted to have someone there to help keep me on the right path while trying out these new legs. There were a few other things I brought up to her, but that was basically it.

So we'll see how it goes.

Oh, Smoking Dude just came to the window. He always announces his presence by turning on the light. That way it gives me a really clear view of his silhouette. Yeah, he's smart like that.

Otherwise, not much is new. Kitten is sitting next to me, all beautiful. I'm starting to miss school. A lot. It keeps me focused.

Bruce Willis is on The Daily Show right now, and damnit if he isn't funny! I had no idea....

This is becoming really boring. After leaving school, I stopped doing a lot of the things I used to do, and I guess blogging was one of them.

Wow

There are times when I see things that I used to believe were beautiful and am reminded of just how ugly they really are. Of just how ugly some people are. And I can look back on the life I used to have and be so thankful that I am no longer involved in any of it. There is no sadness about that.

DAMNIT!!!!

There is a "Roseanne" marathon on today, which means I haven't left the couch at all! Not to do dishes. Not to clean anything. Although I did take a shower and apply to a few jobs and make some phone calls. But I did my resume while watching the damn TV.

Oh Roseanne, why must you have created a show that was ground-breaking because of it's reality to the point where I have studied your shows in a class? That means I've been sitting here, justifying my complete slothness by telling myself that it's a study of classism.

Wow

Take that frown and turn it upside down.

So today I realized that I have been pretty down all week. I don't know if it's actually that I was down, or the fact that I've had nothing to do for a week for the first time in years. Either way, I was feeling a bit like shit and not like myself.

So today I decided to pamper myself a bit. I got my first ever mani/pedi at a salon. It was awesome. So relaxing.

Then I stopped by Ethel's on the way to get my hair cut (and as my final hurrah to chocolate), and the woman working behind the counter was so impressed with how excited I was (she actually told me this) that she gave me four pieces for free. One was a new one to try, and the other three were her favorites.

Then I went to my usual place for my haircut. As always, she did an awesome job and I'm in love with it.

Then I went to Hama Matsu for some sweet potato and avocado sushi. De-lish. That's all I have to say about that.

I feel like I'm back. I don't think it was a depression as much as it was a boredom. And it's been so long since I've been able to relax with NOTHING to do whatsoever that it felt alien to me. And I felt like something was wrong.

But I know in this week I've dealt with a few more things that needed dealing with. And that just makes me very happy. But I didn't realize it until I started feeling happy with myself.

While eating sushi, I heard the song "Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend". I have to disagree wholeheartedly. I believe that a day of doing nothing but what you want, and pampering yourself and taking care of yourself is a woman's best friend. Hell, anyone's best friend. A day filled with nothing but fun things and great food....there isn't much that can top that.